This I Believe is Prewriting Free-writing Response

I believe that is it foolish to make fun of someone who self-harms

            So i really dont know what im suppose to write beyond that statement i guess i wrote it because i used to self harm and was made fun of and all it did was make everything worse it was horrible everyone thought my family was perfect and loving and all that other stuff but that was just the facade that they put flawlessly up it was pathetic it made me so mad that so many people were blind to who they really were but i guess alot of people do that, hide their real selves that is i do atleast i personally dont think i hide anything horrible but then again i guess i do because if it wasnt horrible why would i hide it maybe because im afraid that if show my real self that people will hate me and that would just absolutely and completely destroy me well i guess not because i have a precious baby boy who is almost seven months old, he is so perfect i hope i never lose him he brings a little bit of light into all my days he is without a doubt the best thing that has ever happened to me and so is his father although his father may go to jail over something stupid he did when he was young and thought his mother was going to die but we all do dumb stuff when we think we are going to lose someone well i guess i cant say everyone because well i dont know everyone but thats what i was brought up around. im trying to not make this blog post so dark and dreary but its hard not too considering thats what my head consist of its not like im begging for help or even feel especially depressed im just not happy most of the time and have dark thoughts but i know such behavior is inappropriate for school so i try to hide or atleast mask it so that others dont see and get freaked out or anything and so that i dont get in trouble or referred to a consular so um blah blah blah i have no idea what to type anymore so im just typing randomly my hand is starting to hurt i wonder if its almost been ten minutes but i cant check because that would mean that i stopped writing to check the time and we arent suppose to stop writing in this exercise i really hope that grammar doesnt matter in this project because i obviously have no included any of seeing as this is how my brain is constantly running and once again i feel the need to state that my hand hurts really bad i cant wait to be able to stop writing yada yada yada yada yada i wonder what everyone else wrote and what they chose to freewrite about is there a word limit on this thing because im about to hit the bottom of the page and i dont know oh well look at that i guess there isnt a limit since the page just moved with me isnt that depressing i was hoping i could stop typing.