First blog entry

I have no idea what to write about. This assignment is going to be really hard for me because I am not that creative and hate writing assignments. If it were possible to write poetry I would. I enjoy writing poetry to express my feelings and thoughts. Although I do not use the “normal” format, I freestyle. Another reason this assignment is going to be really hard for me is because my mind jumps around a lot; I can easily cover at least seven different topics in three hundred words. Jumping around a lot may not pose such a problem if I was good at fluency, sadly such is not the case. This also causes me great stress while writing an essay. Earlier I mentioned that I enjoy poetry and I do, I actually enjoy writing usually; however I loathe it when it’s assigned and/or has to be a certain way. It makes me feel so pressured and cramped, I end up editing out half, if not more, of what’s on my mind. Then again that might be a good thing considering my mind is so dark and dreary. I believe that freewriting will help me with all of the issues previously discussed. Therefore most of these entries will be freewriting, some of which will be random and personal, while others will cover class material. Hopefully this will improve my composition skills. With that said let us move one to our most recently assigned readings. The book “The Other Wes Moore” has captured my attention no doubt. I already love message it’s giving as well as the visual images the author has made available through his use of words. I can just picture the run down streets of Baltimore and the Bronx. These two boys have already gone through so much in such a short period of time. At first one may not realize this but think about it, they both have lost their father, in completely different ways. They both have peers they feel the need to impress through violent acts. Their experiences are already making them such different people. One may grow up bitter and vindictive. While the other grows up mourning a loss but not self-destructing because of it. Now I am not trying to say that either one is doing either of those things intentionally that is just the path I have interpreted so far. How one comes to not father greatly impacts how they grow up. Such is just simple psychology. Alright that is enough about that book let us move one to the reference guide. While I have found this book helpful with understanding formats reading it as an assignment is completely boring. Do not get me wrong I see the point, it has great guidelines for writing. The part that says we should openly express our fear of being judged surprised me. I feel like doing this would help me accept others advice , follow it and therefore make me a better writer. 

This I Believe is Prewriting Free-writing Response

I believe that is it foolish to make fun of someone who self-harms

            So i really dont know what im suppose to write beyond that statement i guess i wrote it because i used to self harm and was made fun of and all it did was make everything worse it was horrible everyone thought my family was perfect and loving and all that other stuff but that was just the facade that they put flawlessly up it was pathetic it made me so mad that so many people were blind to who they really were but i guess alot of people do that, hide their real selves that is i do atleast i personally dont think i hide anything horrible but then again i guess i do because if it wasnt horrible why would i hide it maybe because im afraid that if show my real self that people will hate me and that would just absolutely and completely destroy me well i guess not because i have a precious baby boy who is almost seven months old, he is so perfect i hope i never lose him he brings a little bit of light into all my days he is without a doubt the best thing that has ever happened to me and so is his father although his father may go to jail over something stupid he did when he was young and thought his mother was going to die but we all do dumb stuff when we think we are going to lose someone well i guess i cant say everyone because well i dont know everyone but thats what i was brought up around. im trying to not make this blog post so dark and dreary but its hard not too considering thats what my head consist of its not like im begging for help or even feel especially depressed im just not happy most of the time and have dark thoughts but i know such behavior is inappropriate for school so i try to hide or atleast mask it so that others dont see and get freaked out or anything and so that i dont get in trouble or referred to a consular so um blah blah blah i have no idea what to type anymore so im just typing randomly my hand is starting to hurt i wonder if its almost been ten minutes but i cant check because that would mean that i stopped writing to check the time and we arent suppose to stop writing in this exercise i really hope that grammar doesnt matter in this project because i obviously have no included any of seeing as this is how my brain is constantly running and once again i feel the need to state that my hand hurts really bad i cant wait to be able to stop writing yada yada yada yada yada i wonder what everyone else wrote and what they chose to freewrite about is there a word limit on this thing because im about to hit the bottom of the page and i dont know oh well look at that i guess there isnt a limit since the page just moved with me isnt that depressing i was hoping i could stop typing.

This I Believe is Prewriting

1. I believe I am a good mother.
2. I believe that people are inherently bad.
3. I believe that we all chose our own path.
4. I believe that everyone can saved from their own hell.
5. I believe that suicide is tragic.
6. I believe that everyone deserves to be themselves without persecution.
7. I believe that family is not dictated by blood.
8. I believe that everyone can be judged.
9. I believe that school is a challenge.
10. I believe that addiction is a sickness.
11. I believe that mental disorders are real.
12. I believe that not everything has a purpose.
13. I believe that no one should be bullied.
14. I believe that is it foolish to make fun of someone who self-harms.
15. I believe that greed runs rampant in this world.
16. I believe that is it hard to not be selfish.
17. I believe that people should be punished for their wrong doings.
18. I believe that everyone deserves a friend.
19. I believe that not everybody can be saved.
20. I believe that no two people are exactly alike.
21. I believe that child are innocent.
22. I believe that color affects mood.
23. I believe that smell effects taste.